Daybook 1-18-13

Outside my window...Right now there is a layer of snow on the ground and some very cloudy skies. There is a moon hiding somewhere up there as well. 

I am thinking... I'm thinking about a lot. I am really missing my sisters and how my family used to be. I am also wondering why people are so selfish and whether it is worth it to really keep pushing to help others when they are not willing to help themselves and then treat me like crap. 

I am thankful... I am very thankful for my best friend Beth. I have been dealing with a lot lately and she has been by my side through all of it along with her husband. 

In the kitchen... There are a bunch of dishes waiting to be put away along with more in the sink to be washed. There is also a white rose given to me by a special boy. :0)

I am wearing... The same clothes that I wore to the hospital today because I really haven't been home long enough to change and now that I'm home... I don't have the energy. 

I am creating...  This is always such a hard question to answer  because I have so many project but currently in progress is another Happy Blanket for someone special and a bunch of new headbands. After these are finished I would like to get back into scrap booking so I can get that out of the way. There is a lot that needs done in that area. 

I am going... Not very far this weekend. I am trying to rest up and maybe just clean up and work on crafts this weekend. I will be visiting family this weekend at some point though. 

I am wondering... Why God allows so much to happen to Good people at one time. I have really be struggling with this in the last month after a few deaths in our family. None of which I am handling very well. :0(

I am reading... Currently nothing because I honestly haven't picked up a book since my sisters' accident. 

I am hoping... That winter leaves quickly and that the next week goes smoothly with treatments. I am terrified and just want things to start kicking in. 

I am looking forward to... At this point I don't really have any special dates to look forward too  but...I did move in December which is why I haven't posted in so long so I am really looking forward to decorating my house room by room. :0) 

I am learning... I'm not really sure what I am suppose to be learning at the moment because God has a lot on my plate right now but I do know I am trying to sort things out. 

Around the house... A lot of craft supplies (yarn mostly) and now it is starting to fill up with boxes of my sister's stuff who passed away 2 weeks ago. I have to slowly go through it so really I think the boxes are just going to stay. 

A favorite quote for today... "A friend dances with you in the sunshine but walks with you in the storm." - unknown. I read this today as my best friend was giving me bad news in her life but it is such a true quote for the 2 of us. 

One of my favorite things... my purple blanket...oh and the new pillow case that my grandma made for me! I love it! 

A few plans for the rest of the week: Surviving treatments; trying to keep my mouth shut when I really just want to scream at people and the important ones are...trying to work on and maybe finish the happy blanket that I am working on. 

A peek into my day...

One of the many crafts that I have just finished. Its a scarf.