In the New House!

Well I am officially into the new apartment and all of my stuff in unpacked. Yes I know that sounds impossible but I really don't have that much stuff. Actually my family ended up giving me a lot of furniture but in the end it was a great day and with my family's help, it went really quickly. As I was unpacking I had found this wooden plaque (to the left) that Amanda had given me around Christmas and since it fit so well, it was the first thing I hung up. :0)

After all the unpacking, my parents gave me a $50 giant eagle gift card so I decided to go shopping for a few things and then ended up coming home and making Jello. Its red which and blue and its was made in layers but it was the first official thing cooked in the new kitchen. Here is a picture of the master piece as well. lol.

The blue is on the bottom then red jello with white marshmallows. 

The only other exciting thing is that at the moment I do NOT have the Internet at my new place and until I do I wont be able to post until laundry days. lol. But since I don't have any cable or Internet I have been watching old movies and catching up on the crafts that I have been meaning to do. :0) I have finished Dan's Happy Blanket and I am really excited to give it to him and don't want to ruin the surprise of what it is so I am going to share it here and then put it on facebook after he gets it. lol. Ready? .....

There  you have it. Crocheted it myself. :0) Otherwise there isn't really to much to post other than I am trying to get over another rough patch only to have surgery the 10th but I'm doing OK and trying to stay positive. With all that said though, I'm going to my laundry and head back over to the apartment.
Hope Everyone is well.
Keep Smiling!

Online Clean Up

Have you ever just gone onto Google and typed in your name just to see what would come up? I have heard of people doing this and it is said that a person should do this every so often just to make sure you don't have anything random floating about and tonight I decided that I was curious. I never realized all the things I had signed up for like, myspace, twitter, and other random ones that I seriously either never really understood enough to use or I haven't used in years because of facebook and blogger. I can even remember my passwords and logins to most of them and I am hoping I can get them emailed to me because I plan on shutting them down but I was interested in looking over my myspace because I remember when I used to love it so much.
Lets See...my life 2 years ago and beyond according to myspace.....
My top 8 favorite people were; My sister Mariah, and my friends Richard, Erin, Tina, Tony, Tony's Mom, Zach and Shellie. The funny thing is I still am really close to all but one of them and that is only because his girlfriend doesn't let us talk. So I guess much hasn't changed in that area. Honestly not much has changed at all in the last 2 years. I guess I should be thankful that I'm stable? lol. really i think its just that after college i was able to determined who I really am. I do know I am a lot stronger as a person since then but its still strange to see.
Anyways... I do plan on deleting all but facebook and blogger because the rest is just a waste of space and that bothers me that I have so much out there. I already cleaned up my facebook and email last night. I just want to move on and get a fresh start in all areas, so this is part of taking out the trash.

Here's to the future of adventures with great friends and a lot of smiles!

Moving on and Moving up...

Drawn By Kathryn Aggelakos

I don't know if can really see this picture but it is something my little sister designed to go into my new apartment starting August 1st! You read it right! I was approved for the new apartment and that land lord is so nice. He may not know it much yet but he is really helping me to finally start over for myself and get my life in order. A new plan for my health which is starting August 10th, a new apartment and I am going to finally be able to starting working on my Goals/To do List. It is a new start and I'm so excited to me finally getting to do it. I have been praying so hard and Thanking God so much for answered prayers lately. Even the things I was hoping would end differently; I know He has big plans for me and that maybe the people He is taking out of my life is for a better purpose. 

So for the warnings to those who actually read this, I going to try and post as much as I can but it might only be every 2 weeks unless I get the Internet in the new place right away. Although it is not on my high priority list considering I am moving with no furniture. I have created a wish list on walmart.com and plan on working for everything I need one item at a time and i am so excited to be starting new. But until I get settled, that means Internet is at the bottom of the list. I do plan on posting updates on the apartment as the decorating undergoes so keep checking in. :0) Otherwise I will catch up with you all when I can. Love you all and I'm praying for all of you. 

Keep Smiling!

Weekend away and life in general

I'm sorry that I haven't posted in a few weeks but I have been trying to enjoy my good days with my family and friends. Zach and I did get to run away to Somerset County on June 30th and the ride was pretty amazing. One of my best friends (Stacy) and her family were in town and it was the first time in 3 years since they moved away so we rushed down at the first chance to see them. Zach LOVED the scenery and I can say that if we are both feeling up to it again we will be taking other trips down to see other sites around that area. Sadly we didn't get any pictures with Stacy and her kids but we did get pictures of the bridges and the fire work gorilla that was on the side of the road.

The following day was Church in the park in Waterford and I am very glad to say that I made it and so did Shellie and Thomas! Thomas was actually very good through the service but ended up covered in dirt because he was playing with his car the whole time. Everyone loved him though and he loved everyone there as well. Zach is going to be going to church with me this coming Sunday as long as we both feel up to it and I'm so excited because Zach doesn't really go to church. :0) but anyways....After Church in the park we also got to spend the day with the Chorneys and after going out to lunch with them, we went back to the old house and Thomas got my old bed. He is officially a Big Boy now. :0) I'm so proud. 

Other than that, I have just been enjoying time with my family. We are on the search for new places to live which is kind of stressful and my sisters friends are back and staying here as well which is really stressful so I'm trying to just stay out of the way and avoid the headaches that are coming along with it. :0( I really just cant wait to get this move over with though so things will calm down. 

Things with Zach are doing great for those who are wondering. Unless you count the Department of Health being that the facility that he works at, he is doing great and improving more each day. So with that I think I am going to head off to sleep. 

Love you all and hope you are all smiling!

Happy Friday!

Wow. its hard to believe that its already Friday. I feel like I have missed most of the week and in all honesty, I kinda did because I have been so sick but while being down for the count I have been working on happy blankets so it Kind of works out. I also had the energy today to finish moving some more of my stuff into the house and eventually i will be able to bring the bins out of the closet one by one and go through them so I can figure out what is really trash and what needs to be kept. There is still a little bit more at the old place but most is waiting to go to good will.
Otherwise I wish I had something more to post but other than Kat being at a job interview right now and waiting to hear how that goes and trying to decide my true feelings about everything going on between me and Zach; (I will save that for another post when I really do know what I'm going to do); i really don't have anything else to report. I can tell you that I love living in this house though and I'm really glad that I'm with Ash and the kids. :0)
So with all that being said...yes I'm still kicking and although I'm moving slower these days; I'm still smiling and I'm praying that you are all smiling as well.

Things I want to do this summer...

People keep asking me if there is anything I want to do and I decided  to post it here because honestly, repeating myself is kind of wearing me out. So other than waking up to one of these beautiful nieces in the morning each morning...

Hailey on a Milk Run/Scream

here are a few things that I would like to do....

1. I would really like to go to church again. I do really miss it and although I know its not always an easy task; it is rather important to me. I have been reading my bible here at home but it isn't the same and going to church and having someone else encourage the learning process. 

2. I really want to go to the beach. I'm actually really shocked that I haven't been there very much in the last year. I used to be there 4-5 times a week and I actually haven't been to the beach since August! It makes me sad that I didn't go when I was able to get around but the weather hasn't really helped either. :0( 

3. I would like to have a campfire and roast marshmallows. I haven't had a good smore in awhile and although the smore goldfish have tied me through so far this year. There is nothing more perfect than a real smore. MMMM. its 630 am and now I want one. lol. Plus I really want to see Hailey eat one. I bet she would be covered head to toe. lol. :0) 

4. I would like to finish the 3 blankets I'm working on at the moment. Yes 3, happy blankets at the same time. My goal this year was to use the yarn I had and I have so far been successful and I really just cant wait to finish these blankets for Dan, Katie and misty. Then after that, I am going to pass the crocheting skill on to a few special people who have been wanting to learn. I guess that I would also like to be able to take the time to teach them both and I'm hoping my health is willing. It really is a wonderful skill to have and I'm so glad that my mom taught me. 

5. Finish scrap booking all the pictures from my site so that my family had them in one book and I can get the site a little more organized so that maybe my sisters can continue to take pictures and add it to the family site. I have really enjoyed keeping the family up to date since 2007 but after awhile the photos add up and I'm running out of room. That and I would like for my sister to have all her kids pictures in one spot since her kids always run around and destroy her photos. I also want to put a book together for my mom and grandma so they both have them in one place. :0) 

6. Finish both the books my mom lent me in the last year. I am half way through both but I put the first down this winter and then recently picked up the 2nd and was hooked so now that I'm not as mobile I think its a good time to finish them, :0) Sorry it took so long mom. 

Otherwise I just really want to spend time with the people I love and enjoy the sunshine. I know it kinda seems like a lot but I'm praying for some good days to finish some stuff and get to maybe share some good time with my family and friends and considering right now I am bonding with my step dad and teaching Hailey new words I think we might be off to a good start. :0) Did I mention that I love being in this house no matter how bad I feel?! 

Hailey and her "Bug" 

With that being said and the fact that it just took me almost 4 hours to write this... I think I'm going to rest. I love you all and hope you are all smiling! 

Anger, Sadness and Forgiveness.

"Even the saddest things can become, once we have made peace with them, a source of wisdom and strength for the journey that still lies ahead." Frederick Buechner

Lately it feels like anger and sadness are filling the world around me and I'm stuck in the middle of it all. The events around me that are taking place between Zach and I are not only hitting me hard but it breaks my heart to see how much it effects everyone around me. I almost wish I could just bottle it all up and send it to the moon. I don't feel the need to write in detail all he has done, because honestly I think that only adds to the fire but I do know that the choices he is making is changing a lot of lives and opinions of him and although it breaks my heart that he wants to leave and I have been angry for everything he has done; I have come to terms with everything and decided that for my sake I need to forgive him and leave it to God. I am hoping that my family and friends can do the same as well  because honestly, watching the situation as it hits everyone around me is making it hard for me to be around people and watching others be angry is making it harder for me to process myself. I am asking that we all just forgive and move on because honestly there is way to much bitterness and we are just not those kind of people. I am a firm believer that we should not judge others here on earth because God will cast judgement when every one's time comes. So I am and leaving the ENTIRE situation between the lawyers, and God. I have done all I can to help Zach and now I just want things to be peaceful so I can enjoy what time I have left without everyone being bitter or angry or even worried about what I am feeling about it. Honestly I feel that if Zach was meant to leave; then God must have something better planned for my life and honestly I know that soon I will be with God and I just want to enjoy my family and friends while I can. 

With all that said, I am done being angry and I'm not going to be sad or bitter because I did have some very good times with Zach that I will never forget nor do I want to but I also know I have a lot more memories to create with the people I love and who REALLY love me back and that is what I want to focus on. I know I am getting weaker but the dreams of going to the beach and roasting marshmallows are still there. I want to play with my nieces and nephews and watch as many soccer games I can. Maybe make it to church a few more times...these are things I want to be doing and I worked so hard to get home and get mobile that I want to enjoy it and I want others to enjoy it too without being bitter. So I am asking for everyone to please just forgive. I know that none of us can forget but I think we should all just leave it between Zach and God because we all know that God's finally judgement is the most important and in the meantime, lets just enjoy the lives we have around us. 

I mean it with all my heart when I say I appreciate everyone who has been here for me in the last few  years, months and even weeks. You all mean so much to me and you always will. I'm praying we get to spend some good times together this summer and that a lot of happiness is shared. So until then, keep smiling and I'm going to drift back off to dream land. 

P.S. Dear Kat, I love you more than a vacuum loves skittles. You are the best sister and best friend a girl could every ask for and don't you ever let anyone make you feel otherwise. Here is the song that you keep asking about. Sorry I have been singing parts all week. lol. Love you always, JJ

Find you on my Knees - Kari Jobe